jillie

My little champ. I wanted to pen for you my hearts desires. I know you are too small to understand, but a few years down the lane you will understand my words. 

With lots of love and expectations I brought you into the world. I really wanted to say my heard out so adding a but here. But God had different plans and you turned out to be a boy. The stress I felt in the initial days with you and motherhood struggles kept me a little away from you.. I only clinged with you just because I dint want to feel disconnected and not to give some one else a chance to be closer to you..  I never felt the love.. But u held on to me with love and even when I break a thousand times I felt ur binding me back again.. It hurts me when u do all your tantrums and mischief but looking back at it feel so good.. Glad I am taking pictures of them.. Love your bold moves

I ll come tomorrow n write.. Mumma feeling sleepy..