Uuuumai vhzilighal..

the flow of the peaceful state of my mind is my silence

with the waves of pain that empties my happiness

how am I to keep my soul in silence; all I feel is unstoppable lava of anger.. 

either through words or through my tears.....

When can I find my peace.. in search of that dark place of silence... 

                                                                                                 Hugs, Jeba

28th May 2024

My fag day lead you to take a complete day away from me with your friends. 

I thought about you several times today wondering if you had missed me.. if you had eaten your meal.. if you had drank enough water.. 

was watching the stairs several times waiting for you to come back.. missing your presence and dreaming that you will come running Ammaaa.. 

I always fear no one will treat you the way I do.. n no one is there to even listen to what I feel.. except for the mear walls and maybe you, hence I have come in solace to write my heart out to you. 

it's late and u came home already now but I am still waiting for you to come and hug me... n my presence is still not felt in ur eyes.. 

Love U sonna.. 

Hugs, Jeba

Excitement

Love is excitement...

The smile that spreads when your heart is filled with excitement.

even the smallest happiness

when you love the big boy pants, and it glistens in your eyes,

showcasing it now and then to me

love is exciting to watch.

Your smile is filling us with a gentle loving happiness.

My little sonna is growing...

and I am growing old with you.. :)

Hugs, Jeba

October

In love with this type of art. Not sure what it's called. The mynute things we draw takes your thoughts of everything else and let's you go blank and quite. 

Jazz

beautiful Bea

September is a month that plays a lot of memories in my mind. Most of it is painful coz there is not a day past with out thinking of her. 

As a habit handstiched this year too and gave it to a girl almost her age. 

Miss her the most.. 

September

Stress, anger, loneliness, and so much more hss been part of my every day beeings lately.. Trying to beat it out via different means.. 

Have included some Words that i found soothing on the insta 

in love

That day we got wet in rain and drenched in love ❤.. 

Relates a lot to us me and hubby. That day I fell in love with him in the midst of rain near beach with showering flowers from above (a tree which was dropping it's flowers) 

satisfaction

Some times small things make you happy like the smell of rain

Listening to my son using his vocabulary wisely, 

A surprise candy I found in the fridge forgotten long back, 

The dish(paurupu urundai curry) I made turned out tasty, 

I completed my exercise, 

Ate healthy at noon, and junk in the evening, 

Feeling happy and confident, and 

Accidentally started sharpening a wax crayyon which gave a feel of satisfaction that made me continue till the end.. Loved every bit of it. 

doodling bookmarks

Hello souls, 

I used to have a habit of continuous reading, like I could complete a 400 page novel in one night so addictive I used to be before I found my life partner. After which things changed with restrictive time. Most important reasons behing my reduced reading was that he dint encourage reading in bed, or should say late night reading saying my eyes will get affected, and then during pregnancy "read only motivational books". Man, one who loves thriller and fiction how could I read inspirational books. So I choose better no books than sleep inducing books as pregnancy was already making me sleepy even during the day. The no book habit has continued till date as my son has replaced my husband. He is such an attention seeker that I couldn't even concentrate in one page per day. 

The only relief from these is to induce him with book magic,  which I started when he was 9 months. Now he is 50 months ( 4 yrs and 2months) and he could read any book since he was 3 and half, now got the fluency too even with complicated words. 

I thought I can read at peace now because he loves books too, but his newest habit is that I have to read one of his book fully, and followed which he ll read. 

Oh mannn

I'm hoping that may be when he goes to school I'll have some time with the books. I started making book marks for the process now.. 

doodle

Hello me, 

Time is a blessing from heaven and the one who knows how to manage it well can include any new hobby to their working list. Trying hard to utilize this blessing we all have to the most. 

doodle

Hello peaceful soul, 

After a tough sleepless night with my little one I had a peaceful lazy day on my sofa. 

Let this peaceful life flow on.. 

After lookin at the above doodle my son said, mumma it's fantastic, but you need to practice more. He is only 4 plus 31 days and how much vocabulary his little brains can store already. I'm in awe of this little creature I made. 

Jazzy

1st June 2021

doodling names

It's been a while spending time for myself. I don't remember wen I last trimmed my brows, or cleansed my skin (it has so many pimples and marks), lest forget the routines of keeping the hair tidy. It's always a mess, I would rather say I am in a mess or I am the mess.

Reminding myself the mess I am in. 

hands on sewing

Some times I miss things in life to such extreme that madness comes out of myself. No words to describe that feeling. Miss my wonder a lot. Wish she was there. 

In her memory handmade this n gifted it to a girl. 

ball dropper

My son is going to be 4 years old in April 2021, and ever since he started playing on his own he loved things that rolls or drops. Vehicles, balls, fountains, cereal and nuts containers, etc., and I had been recycling cardboards into ball and car rollers all these while to keep him engaged. But he pulls it apart within few days and recently came across a ball dropper set on Amazon and I kind of liked it and got inspired to do this one using Popsicles. 

just added a few fairy lights and he is super excited to play with it. 

popsicle stick craft

My son has been asking for a tow truck from amost a year now after watching a show of blippi. We have been searching for a cheaper version of it for a very long time as the one online is quite expensive and at last I decided to try my hands on it. With this little man constantly bugging me n pushing me to complete it. I finished it in few hrs but it looks like a dumpster tow truck. But my son is extremely happy that he could tow his lorries n fire truck. 

beach pics mussles

creativity tips

Love every word that had been mentioned in these tips. My special thanks to the person who compiled them all,  every art and craft inventor or designer could relate themselves to it. Found them on Pinterest n forgot to take down the persons name.

Thank u

Jeba